Poetic Ramblings

Get better
I need you to grow old
I'm tired of this terror

Get better
Some day you have to
Walk me down the aisle

Get better
I want to see you healthy
I want you to be strong

Get better, daddy
Please
Please get well

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PLEASE GOD!!

It gets harder the older I get
Taking things slow
But I want to do it right with you

You mean so much to me
I'd really like us to last
And I want to do it right with you

I've still got my guard up
That's something that's rare for me
Because I want to do it right with you

I seem to be falling fast
I'm trying to keep my head
I really want to do it right with you

I hope that we can make it work
I hope that you feel it too
I just want to do it right with you

You hurt me, you used me
Found different ways to abuse me
Now that you're gone
I'm fine moving on
You'll never see my face again

It may sound strange
My life's rearranged
I'm glad you broke my heart
It gave me a brand new start
And you'll never see my face again

I hope someday you can be
The man you never were for me
Maybe someday soon you'll know
And your true self will show
But you'll never see my face again

Losing people sucks.
I've got one person I need to shut out
One person I want to come back
But they aren't ready
Will they ever be?
Did I hurt them as bad as
That other person hurt me?
What if it can never be
What if they can't let me back
What if I have to shut him out
Just like he shut me out
Will it be forever?
And others are lost in the mayhem
Innocent bystanders forced to choose
The pain dulls
But it still stings
Will it ever end?

Is it me
Or is it the guys I've been with
I've never felt sure
Never known with certainty
Never thought "Oh yeah, this is right"

Is it something inside
Or are the guys just wrong
I've always had some caution
Never have I been doubtless
Never thought "everything is fine here"

So is it me
Or are the guys just wrong
I've always wondered
How will I know
When the right one shows
Will I still have doubts
Or will I think with absolute clarity
"Hello, I know you're the one"

I love you so much
But I think that I'm done
We had our days
We had our fun

I love you so much
But I think that I'm through
I can't take any more
Of this shit that you do

I love you so much
But my heart is broke
You've caused so much pain
With your mirrors and smoke

I love you so much
But this might be goodbye
We were something once
Now it seems like a lie

I love you so much
But that doesn't do
If you loved me back
Your heart would be true

You're all I want
You're all I need
But still you make
My heart bleed

I can't let go
I can't move on
It hurts so much
But I'll stand strong

You've bruised me
You've crushed me
Oh boy, how do you do
What you do to me

I want to be your girl
But I can't see how
Things keep changing
What do you want now

I can't let go
I can't move on
It hurts so much
But I'll stand strong

You're all I want and
You're all I see
You've got the power to
Set me free

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Kiss me softly
Eyes wide shut
Viscous cycle
Instant heart ache
Never fully mine

Just a game or
Are you true
I am waiting
Make up your mind
End the questions
Show you're true

Now I'm broken
Every time you change
What do I do
Because I love you
Understand, please
Recognize
You have to choose

I've cried so many tears over you
I'm not sure how many I have left
All I know is
You'd better get your shit figured out
Or you're gonna lose me.

You say you're sorry
So sorry
But I see no change
You hurt me again
And again
I see no change

How many chances you have left I can't say
But you're running out of time
I'd put my fist through the wall
But that would only hurt me

You say you're sorry
It's too easy to forgive
But you show no proof
You keep stomping on my heart
It's bruised
So bruised
It's scarred by your love

You need to figure this out
You can't keep playing with my mind
With my heart
You need to decide
What your love means
Or you're gonna lose me

I don't want you to lose me

Maybe I'm addicted
Maybe that's what this is
Maybe that's the reason why
Maybe your love is my drug

Maybe I can't let you go
Maybe you're my brand of cocaine
Maybe we're addicted
Maybe my love is your drug

Maybe we aren't helping ourselves
Maybe we don't do things easy
Maybe there are reasons
Maybe we don't want to let go

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Inspired by any and every song about being addicted to someone, including but not limited to Your Love is my Drug and Core of my Addiction

So many things I want to say
So many things I can't
It's hard to believe that to this day
I'm not quite over you

It's been over a year now
I thought that I'd be done
But I am finding some how
I'm not quite over you

We're both trying to move on
And both finding it difficult
We've been close for so long
I'm not quite over you